I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok

I miss you

I miss you

It has been ages sice i've updated my blog. Work is reli holding me bac from writing at my lame blog. When im off im always out wif my family n frens dat it makes it so fuckin hard 2 me 2 hav sme time 4 me myself and i. Currently im at my room with a sudden depression of a teenage girl cuz out of a sudden i feel dat im FUCKIN UGLY!!! I dunno how 2 explain this bt my self confidence is goin very low. I mean u can tell urself dat u can outdo urself everyday. bt reality isnt reli d same. Its nt easy 2 outdo urself. I am so jealous of so masny things dat i cant get or obtain. N smetimes d worlds worst loser can bring me down like a hammer nailing a fuckin rusted nail. I noe dis depression is gonna b temporary bt im sure dat it will happen again n again until i outdo myself. I dont alweays look happy all d time on d outside..... n im sure dat no1 will ever read dis post so it makes me easier 2 4get dis temporary lack of self confidence.

Pelabuhan KoteAnak

Currently i dunno wat 2 blog so i would just tell but d pd trip dat i went on last saturday. It was Nicole's burfday so we decided 2 go 2 Port DICKson. It was a very last minute thingy n oni a few came. Me, Main, Naga, Eshia, Jes n Que. We had so much of fun. We left at 12 from Subang n reached the beach around 1.30. The beach was the one where Anissa stayed. It was quite cold n quiet n luckily there were not any Rempits or paria there. Had so much of fun. Me Que n Eshia went skinny dipping 4 d 1st time!!! lol.... All tanx 2 Andrew. Went back home at around 5 something n arrived at my house at 7. I told Andrew dat at 7 u could hear d birds chirping d sky is cool n nice. Wat a great way 2 start d day. Unfortunately useless people like us are ending d day. Lol!!! Went 2 work d next day n continued my working n boring life. Dats all 4 now. Ciao......

Work

My god!! i'm finally updating my blog afta centuries.... I nvr knew dat work could make me so tired n bz. Working at Marks n Spencer is quite fun. It is never dat stressfull compared 2 workin at other clothing shop. My co-workers r freindly n i nvr experience such major prob. I met so many new customers and it reli tought me a lot of stuff. In a way it kinda help me 2 prepare 4 Mass Comm. I love 2 layan customers who hav babies or small kids. Those toddlers reli do make up my long n tiring day. Unfortunately, working reli does cut my social life. Today is my off day n im bloggin from iffah's hse. Kinda miss her.... She helped me make a bank account 2day. lol!!! i tink im done blogging 4 now

CIAO....

lol...=)

On Sunday my dad n mom told me 2 get a job or stay at home n stop askin 4 money. Obviously i had 2 choose d 1st 1. I would die stayin at home n nt havin money 2 go out!!! Anyways called eisha n she told me dat there was a vacancy at FUCKSON. Went there 2 ask 4 d job bt the manager wasnt there. Then Eisha followed me 2 Mark's n Spencer n she forced me 2 apply there. Now Thevanesh is a temporary salesman at Mark's n Spencer...haha!!! I nevr knew that working at 1 shop could b quite tiring. D co-workers r fine n my supervisor is haha...nice!! So far only Dila n Eisha visited me at work. Had 2 sacrifice a lot 4 mobney. 4 instance no more clubbing!!! haha...ill learn hw 2 live without it.

G2g now...FULL SHFT 2MORO!!!

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Since I could not go out wif my parents yesterday, i decided 2 celebrate my burfday wif my frens instead at Republic Bar. A few of my coll n skl frens came yesterday. I had so much of fun yesterday bt d rest just had 2 stand me acting stupid annoying n rude cuz i was so FUCKIN DRUNK!!! D last thing dat i remembered is dat i was at Itialanese n d next day i woke up in my house. WTF rite??? Thank God Raga Nisha Nicole n Andrew Ryan n Sean were there 2 bring me back home. Woke up wif a massive hangover n could not get out of d bed until 4. Anywayz i would like 2 tank all of you guys 4 cmin cmin last nite. Sori 4 d trouble dat i caused. N i would like 2 thank Daryl n Mira 4 callin me yesterday. U guys reli did make up my day. Miss u guys!!(gay)

2 those who actually read my lame blog sori 4 nt updating 4 so long. Hav been very bz wif tests n all d college bullshit. From October 30th till d 1st week of November I will be having my finals. Therefore i cnt reli go out much from today onwards. So im reli sori if i didnt hav d chance 2 meet any of you guys. I promise i'll make it up 2 u guys 1 day.....

G2G NOW!!
CIAO....