It has been ages sice i've updated my blog. Work is reli holding me bac from writing at my lame blog. When im off im always out wif my family n frens dat it makes it so fuckin hard 2 me 2 hav sme time 4 me myself and i. Currently im at my room with a sudden depression of a teenage girl cuz out of a sudden i feel dat im FUCKIN UGLY!!! I dunno how 2 explain this bt my self confidence is goin very low. I mean u can tell urself dat u can outdo urself everyday. bt reality isnt reli d same. Its nt easy 2 outdo urself. I am so jealous of so masny things dat i cant get or obtain. N smetimes d worlds worst loser can bring me down like a hammer nailing a fuckin rusted nail. I noe dis depression is gonna b temporary bt im sure dat it will happen again n again until i outdo myself. I dont alweays look happy all d time on d outside..... n im sure dat no1 will ever read dis post so it makes me easier 2 4get dis temporary lack of self confidence.