It has been ages sice i've updated my blog. Work is reli holding me bac from writing at my lame blog. When im off im always out wif my family n frens dat it makes it so fuckin hard 2 me 2 hav sme time 4 me myself and i. Currently im at my room with a sudden depression of a teenage girl cuz out of a sudden i feel dat im FUCKIN UGLY!!! I dunno how 2 explain this bt my self confidence is goin very low. I mean u can tell urself dat u can outdo urself everyday. bt reality isnt reli d same. Its nt easy 2 outdo urself. I am so jealous of so masny things dat i cant get or obtain. N smetimes d worlds worst loser can bring me down like a hammer nailing a fuckin rusted nail. I noe dis depression is gonna b temporary bt im sure dat it will happen again n again until i outdo myself. I dont alweays look happy all d time on d outside..... n im sure dat no1 will ever read dis post so it makes me easier 2 4get dis temporary lack of self confidence.

Pelabuhan KoteAnak

Currently i dunno wat 2 blog so i would just tell but d pd trip dat i went on last saturday. It was Nicole's burfday so we decided 2 go 2 Port DICKson. It was a very last minute thingy n oni a few came. Me, Main, Naga, Eshia, Jes n Que. We had so much of fun. We left at 12 from Subang n reached the beach around 1.30. The beach was the one where Anissa stayed. It was quite cold n quiet n luckily there were not any Rempits or paria there. Had so much of fun. Me Que n Eshia went skinny dipping 4 d 1st time!!! lol.... All tanx 2 Andrew. Went back home at around 5 something n arrived at my house at 7. I told Andrew dat at 7 u could hear d birds chirping d sky is cool n nice. Wat a great way 2 start d day. Unfortunately useless people like us are ending d day. Lol!!! Went 2 work d next day n continued my working n boring life. Dats all 4 now. Ciao......

Work

My god!! i'm finally updating my blog afta centuries.... I nvr knew dat work could make me so tired n bz. Working at Marks n Spencer is quite fun. It is never dat stressfull compared 2 workin at other clothing shop. My co-workers r freindly n i nvr experience such major prob. I met so many new customers and it reli tought me a lot of stuff. In a way it kinda help me 2 prepare 4 Mass Comm. I love 2 layan customers who hav babies or small kids. Those toddlers reli do make up my long n tiring day. Unfortunately, working reli does cut my social life. Today is my off day n im bloggin from iffah's hse. Kinda miss her.... She helped me make a bank account 2day. lol!!! i tink im done blogging 4 now

CIAO....

lol...=)

On Sunday my dad n mom told me 2 get a job or stay at home n stop askin 4 money. Obviously i had 2 choose d 1st 1. I would die stayin at home n nt havin money 2 go out!!! Anyways called eisha n she told me dat there was a vacancy at FUCKSON. Went there 2 ask 4 d job bt the manager wasnt there. Then Eisha followed me 2 Mark's n Spencer n she forced me 2 apply there. Now Thevanesh is a temporary salesman at Mark's n Spencer...haha!!! I nevr knew that working at 1 shop could b quite tiring. D co-workers r fine n my supervisor is haha...nice!! So far only Dila n Eisha visited me at work. Had 2 sacrifice a lot 4 mobney. 4 instance no more clubbing!!! haha...ill learn hw 2 live without it.

G2g now...FULL SHFT 2MORO!!!

911106

Since I could not go out wif my parents yesterday, i decided 2 celebrate my burfday wif my frens instead at Republic Bar. A few of my coll n skl frens came yesterday. I had so much of fun yesterday bt d rest just had 2 stand me acting stupid annoying n rude cuz i was so FUCKIN DRUNK!!! D last thing dat i remembered is dat i was at Itialanese n d next day i woke up in my house. WTF rite??? Thank God Raga Nisha Nicole n Andrew Ryan n Sean were there 2 bring me back home. Woke up wif a massive hangover n could not get out of d bed until 4. Anywayz i would like 2 tank all of you guys 4 cmin cmin last nite. Sori 4 d trouble dat i caused. N i would like 2 thank Daryl n Mira 4 callin me yesterday. U guys reli did make up my day. Miss u guys!!(gay)

2 those who actually read my lame blog sori 4 nt updating 4 so long. Hav been very bz wif tests n all d college bullshit. From October 30th till d 1st week of November I will be having my finals. Therefore i cnt reli go out much from today onwards. So im reli sori if i didnt hav d chance 2 meet any of you guys. I promise i'll make it up 2 u guys 1 day.....

G2G NOW!!
CIAO....

sori 4 not bein able 2 blog 4 sme time.... hav been bz wif a lot of test n my finals is at d end of dis month. I noe my life sucks!!!

Anywayz.... i just came here 2 wish every1 a VERY HAPI DIWALI!!!!
I'm not doin an open hse dis yr unfortunately.....balik kampung 4 a few days oni.
Thats all 4 now....
CIAO...............

Girls

Uh huh
Life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh
That's the way it is
'Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh
That's the way it is

Chill out, what you yellin' for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if, you could only let it be
You will see

I like, you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
And you're, talkin' to me one on one
But you become

Somebody else
'Round everyone else
Your watchin' your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get, and you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no

You come over unannounced
Dressed up, like you're somethin' else
Where you are ain't where it's at you see
You're makin' me

Laugh out, when you strike a pose
Take off, all your preppy clothes
You know, you're not foolin' anyone
When you become

Somebody else
'Round everyone else
Your watchin' your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get, and you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no
(No no no)
No no
(No no no)
No no
(No no no)
No no

Ooh, chill out, what you yellin' for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see

Somebody else
'Round everyone else
Your watchin' your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this, you
You fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get, and you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
(Yea yea)
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get, and you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no

updates

Sori 4 nt bloggin 4 a long time. Hav been lazy dis few days so here's pretty much wat had happened over the weekend.

Thursday : Maisons wif Nicole, Ling n Eisha. Had fun over there. Met Adam.
Friday : Did oral presentation wif a slight hangover. Ms Helen said i did well.
Saturday: Shane died. Reasons unknown. Went 2 digi birthday bash. Got high!!!!!
Sunday: Went swimming wif Nicole n Jeswena. Studied 4 econs topic test.
Today: Went 2 Sue burfday party. Met Anissa and afta so long met Nanda!!!

Sori 4 not elaborating. I'm so fuckin lazy rite now. Mood gone cuz of d stupid letter i recieved from Sunway.
Ciao.....

Finns

Today Mufy moral studies students had their moral community service sale. My group was sellin cupcakes and a drink. It's not actually interestiing but we managed 2 collect a lot of money. During the sale the group next 2 us was doin a fishing game. I paid and I asked Nisha 2 catch 4 me. She caught 2 fish 4 me. (Awwww!!!!).1 was a goldfish while the other looks like 1 of those fish which has a misai. I named 2 gold fish Papi and the other 1 Shane. Both names are the characters of the lesbian playgirls in L word. I named the goldfish Papi bcuz it always moved its mouth and in LWord Papi was a very good kisser. I named d other 1 Shane bcuz itr was very skinny and it look good in a weird way just like Shane. I hope dis fish will live as long as possible. 2 of Nisha's fishes died. Haih... For d 1st time im actually takin care of living things which has zero intelect. Went out with Nicole and Eleena 4 sisha 2day. I think i hav dis addiction 4 sisha which is soooo unhealthy. Nvm its my body!! Anyways im running out of things 2 say....

Ciao..

Ethylchloride

Yesterday me, murtad,juria n nissa got high with ethylchloride a.k.a. Laughin gas. We were laughin all nte long like some mental assholes!! I've nvr laughed dat much in ages. Anissa was d funniest amongst all. She made dis WOOT!! sound everytime she laughed. She was so fuckin cute last nite. Tanx u guys 4 forcing me 2 cme last minute. t was definately a better nite than BLACK EYED PEAS!!!

Ciao...

i've got a feelin...

Finally met kotek kecik afta so long. Fucker just left college without even saying goodbye at all. Had fun chillin at his hse without gettin high or damaging d brain cells. 4 more days 2 go. Till then im gonna try my best to resist all d temptations dat are given 2 me. Iffah called me 2 cyberjaya bt i was at my grandma's hse. Ainaa ask me 2 go 2 rainforest 2nite bt i said no cuz im broke. So i guess 2nite i would most probably chill at hme while d others go 2 black eyed peas concerts maisons n all d fun shits. 2moro i might go 2 liyana's open hse. Hopefully dapat duit raya (MATA DUITAN!!).

Ciao...

btw y isnt d anonymous hater commenting anymore?

Till we meet again...

Yesterday i went 2 amira's and iffah's hse 4 raya. It was great 2 c all d old skl frens sme whom i've nvr seen in ages like chris nayim n zahir. Afta dat i went 2 d airport 2 send Mira 2 russia. WTF!!! 1 kampung of people came 2 send her. Including her frens 10 cars came 2 send her off at KLIA. I think 4 1nce KLIA wasnt reli so empty. I felt sad 4 her but thank god i didnt cry bcuz its quite hard 2 feel sad in front of a chilay bitch. Haih... i didnt even get 2 hug her goodbye bcuz her family members were there. Left d airport at 12 smeting and headed straight 2 que's hse just 2 hang out. Came back home at 5.30. I'm sure that by nxt yr at least 80% of my frens wont b in subang anymore while i'll b stuck in sunway till i grow old.

List of old frens

Daryl-Russia

Amira-Russia

Guna-Nilai

Nadia-Sunway

Juria- Damansara

Shera-Sunway

Nina-Sunway

Nicole-Taylors

Dee-Taylors

Ainaa-Kedah

Iffah-Perak

Now oni 45% of my frens are easily reachable. By next year d numbers may decrease even more. Well dats life. Hopefully i wont be stuck at subang 4eva. But until then i just have 2 accept wat is given 2 me.

Ciao...

Emo Gothic

Its a normal tuesday morning and instead of goin out of my room and havin a breakfast im in it with all curtains closed like some emo gothic staring at my laptop d whole day. A lot of things hav happen 2 me in d past few days but i dont wish 2 talk bout them now. Later i might b goin 2 Mira's hse 4 raya n it might b d last time i c her till nxt years summer. I hav catch up wif a lot of high skl frens who were always bz wif their everyday lives que, pacad, rachel, guna. I remember d times where we used 2 hang out all d time. Haih.... Times have changed indeed.

K g2g now...
CIAO...

freedom!!

Afta i whole week of test n stupid assignments i am finally free tanx 2 d raya break...
Went 2 Daryl's hse last nite n finally finished d bottle of vodka dat we bought when we went MOS 3 months ago. lol....
I was planning 2 go 2 Poppy 2day 4 neesha's burfday bt i totally 4got dat i was fasting so i cant b naughty until Monday d 28th...
I think dats all 4 now...


Ciao....

*BTW there is dis annoying human who keeps on mocking me but nvr revealed their identity...haih GROW SOME BALLS LA!!!

temporarily unactive

Due to all d assignments and test i wont b active for some time until my raya break. Haih... NOW I FUCKIN HATE COLLEGE!!!

Till raya break, Ciao..

Finally sme new stuff

Yesterday when i opened my blog i read a hate mail from an anonymous bastard. Iwas angry at first but then i realised it was my blog's first despise mail. Finally there is smeting 2 make my lame blog interesting. Im so used to it even in my daily life so a few hate mails in my blog won't do much difference. I guess im just Malaysia's most hated. So 2 whoever you are who is tryin 2 bring me down. Pls carry on... LOL!!!

Ciao..

L WORD

Girls in tight dresses

Who drag with mustaches

Chicks drivin' fast

Ingenues with long lashes

Women who long, love, lust

Women who give

This is the way

It’s the way that we live

Talking, laughing, loving, breathing,fighting, fucking, crying, drinking,riding, winning, losing, cheating,kissing, thinking, dreaming.

This is the way

It’s the way that we live

It’s the way that we live

And love

Maafkan Daku

I noe dis sounds stupid but i shouldnt hav called u last nite and said dat i missed u...
Truth b told i missed u...
But u noe dat there is no hope btween us...
I'm sori if d call last nite gav u hope or made u sad...
I'm such a fuckin jerk n dat is all i'll ever be...
I guess im no different from all those other guys at all...
N i totally understand if u wanna hate me in any way dat is possible...
i just wanna say I'M SORRY..

tired...

Spent d whole day yesterday doin n finishing my research project. Had a lack of sleep d nite b4 as well. I knew i screwed it up smewhere bt wth im done n over wif it. So 2 celebrate dis joyous occasion i went 2 Monti's n MOS wif Aminath, George, Marion, Sly n smeone else who remains 2 b unknown. Got a lil drunk n came bc hope lookin like a drug addict. Had 2 wake up early bcuz i promised Nisha dat i would send her 2 coll. After parking d car, Varnesh offered me 2 sleep in his room. So i skipped all my classes till lunch. Yeah!! lol... Tank god class finished early 2day. Gt back home n slept like a baby 4 hrs. Now im in my room restin n tryin 2 detoxify myself..

Ciao..

The ultimate embarassment

Yesterday i went 2 Taylors 4 sme dance comp wif Nicole n Eisha. I knew nobody there n every1 there were gd dancers. Caprice was the host. Eisha was goin gaga over him all d time. We were all having fun until........

4 words ----> Games, Thevanesh, Dance, Snow Patrol, Audience = HUMILATION!!

Hav 2 test 2moro n im so sick 2 even open my book. Failure here i come...

A song for you..

I wake up every evening, with a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place

And your still probably working at a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Now wheres you picket fence love
And wheres that shiny car,
And did it ever get you far

You've never seem so tense love
I've never seen you fall so hard,
Do you know where you are

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, your just as well, hope it gives you hell

Hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Where'd it all go wrong, the list goes on and on

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, your just as well, hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see, what you've done to me
You can take back your memories they're no good to me
And here's all your lies,
You can look me in my eyes
With that sad sad look that you wear so well

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, your just as well, hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song and sing along oh you'll never tell
Then you're the fool, I'm just as well
Hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along I hope that it will treat you well

Im finally glad to say that i have moved on...
I dont care if i end up being single or miserable or even hated for all my life...
I'm just happy dat i'm free....
And i seriously hope dat IT GIVES YOU HELL !!

love drunk....

OMG MTV WORLD STAGE IS FUCKIN AWESOME!!!! 4 d 1st time i was so fuckin high wif d music without d influence of alcohol. I shud hav been in d mosh pit zone but had a change of plan last minute. Haih...nvm i still had a lot of fun. D crowd was unbelievable n almost every1 dat i knew was there. I fuckin loved it when Boys like Girls perform. Many of my college frens managed 2 get 2 mosh pit n gold tickets. Juria n ungku managed 2 go 2 d afta party at MOS. I wanted 2 follow them so badly but my dad sms-ed me during the concert n spoilt my whole mood. Nevertheless i had so much of fun and Pixie Lott is so fuckin HOT !! Came bac home at 12 n slept like a baby....

Black eyed peas cmin soon!!

comeback..

Sori 4 not being able 2 blog 4 some time. Had a fun weekend in Penang wif Daryl, Mira n Nadia. Did many fun stuff there altough the weather was bad. Managed 2 c old skl n college frens there. Nevertheless it was fun hangin out wif all of them n im reli gonna miss d bitch n d biatch when they are gone. Came back from Penang on Sunday afternoon n my mom was screamin 2 me as soon as i arrived at the doorsteps cuz Sunway College had sent a letter 2 my hse. WTF rite? Of all d days u hav 2 send it on d day dat i was not here. y cant these private colleges just take d money dat all d parents gav them n shut their gap. Its not like im failin my subjects n stuff. Anyways, been bombarded d whole week by homework n assignments. In fact im doin my homework now.lets just face d fact. I am boring...

G2g now. Ciao...

blur.....

I checked my blog 2day n i realised i dnt hav anyting 2 write about...i dont feel like complaining, talkin gossiping, bitching n all. WTF!!! i tink im startin 2 b boring. I nd new excitements in my life. I wish i was like my dad when he was so young. So filled wif excitement. I feel like throwing college n all n just travel n party all nite long.Haih.... but dats just cock talk. So till i do smeting interesting. Ciao from boring boy...

A fucked up but fun day

I was enjoying my beautiful afternoon nap until a devil called poneesha called me 2 go 2 Maisons with her. Next thing I knew I was on the way 2 Klang 2 my frens hse. Btw kim may's mom cn reli cook!! After gettin redi d ausmats n me(sesat) where travelling all around KL 2 find dis fuckin club. After an hour of driving we finally arrived at Maisons. D music was so fuckin good n i personally think its better than MOS. Had 2 bottles of Henessy n was feelin so fucked up bcuz i took my flu meds at kim may's hse. Was d 1st 1 2 go down followed by another person. D rest was fine. I reli am fuckin grateful 2 kotek kecik 4 staying wif me d whole nite when i was knocked up. Sundeep was a total asshole dat nite 4 makin me vomit more. Nevertheless i had an enjoyable nite. N i managed 2 dance wif my 1st crush from primary skl. Nadia wants me 2 party wif her 2day. I hope i hav d strength 2 go out 2nite. Havent studied 4 ages n am totally broke 4 next weeks roadtrip.
g2g now. Ciao......

katherine moennig

She is d reason i turned a lesbian. Fuck all u bastards n bitches who thinks she's ugly. I would dump Jesicca Alba 4 her.... My 1st lesbian crush..lol!!

2day was kinda like a normal college day.Woke up late again!! Made nisha wait 4 20 mins.Sat 4 stupid comp science test n made d ever Eng presentation. Kotek kecik promised me smething during lunch but at last he oso couldnt make it. Haih...

To top it all. Adrian made me n Aminath take part in a stupid challenge dat would promise me a ticket 4 world stage but not only we loss, I had 2 embaress myself by posing with a tissue paper and an aluminium foil. Nevertheless it was a very tiring yet stupid day. I hope 2 get out 2moro nite n release all my stress away.

Lame blogger signing off now. Ciao..

911

me daryl nikki n mira went 2 nadia's hse 2day 2 hav lunch
nadia's mom can reli cook la!!
no wonder d daughter is always eating 24/7
anyways i told every1 dat i was goin 4 iu day bt i bailed out last minute (sorry nash!!)
kept myself available 2nite 2 go out wif nicole d celup bt at last plan gt canceled..haih!!
hav 2 test cmin up 2moro n im not even in d mood 2 even touch my books...
i guess i'll just fail dis semester n go study at sme local uni while all my frens r happily studying smewhere else...
dats all 4 nw...(i seriously suck at blogging!!!)

camrym..

Is love d onli thing dat is important in a relationship? Can ur relationship just survive on love?
If u had a choice 2 choose btween ur family n love wat will u do? How can people in those days survive 4 years on their relationship? Do they really love each other? Hav they ever felt bored with their partners? D question just goes on.... I love u but is it gonna last 4eva? How can i 4get u? How can u 4get me? Wat will happen if we met each other?

Dis r d questions cmin from d most screwed up guy in d world who doesnt appreciate wat he has..
We may not b 2gether bt I do love you so much no words or action can describe my feelings....

Hey..

B4 I start wif d blogging dis is myself described in song titles

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
If thats ok wif u -- Shayne Ward

2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Good girls go bad -- Cobra Starship

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Sexy back -- Justin Timberlake

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Bring me 2 life --Evanesence

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Live ur life -- T.I & Rihanna

6. WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Heal d world -- Michael Jackson

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
U'r so gay -- Katy Perry

8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Silly boy --Lady Gaga

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Just d girl -- Click Five

10. WHAT IS 2 + 2?
1,2,3,4 --Plain White t's

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
So wat -- Pink

12. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Empty -- Click Five

13. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Paparazzi -- Lady Gaga & Rihanna

14. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Rimas -- Ruffedge

15. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Love story -- Taylor Swift

16. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Bye bye -- Mariah Carey

17. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Just dance -- Lady Gaga

18. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
When you're gone -- Avril Lavigne

19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Hush hush -- PCD

20. WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Senorita -- Justin Timberlake

21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Hero -- Enrique Iglesias

Dats preety much everyting bout me....
Will blog very soon.....
Btw i took dis from facebook...lol!!